Hi nanna sorry I haven't been on here in a while, been really busy working, trying to 'act' normal.. Alfies birthday next wednesday and I miss him soo much,he should be with his mummy on his 1st birthday..but at least he's with you and grandad, hope he's behaving for you 2, and spoil him lots, and tell him just how much I love and miss him, just like I love and miss you too,to this day I can't believe that your not here, it doesn't seem real, like its a nightmare I just can't wake up from, I miss going to see you and specially on your birthday this year its going to be hard for everyone, I hope your proud of me and how strong I'm being, trying to be strong for myself, mum and the kids, I have a little cry now and again and all I want is a cuddle from alfie and for you to tell me everythings going to be ok, sometimes I think your both in my room at night watching me while I go to sleep,sound crazy I no but it helps me, I'm going for my tattoo in your memory on the 22nd, a jigsaw one just for you, something you loved doing, you'll always be the best nanna in the world and all of heaven, take care of each other and give my boy a kiss.. Sweet dreams my 3 guardian angelss love simone xxxxxxxxxxxxx